"Krishna..."
She made me a skip a heartbeat yet again. I have known Divya for a little over a year now and yet my heart skipped a beat every time she said my name. I met her during my final year at college. We had met at an intercollegiate cultural contest and ran into each other by chance. Then I started running into her on purpose and eventually she started too. A cheerful girl and full of life and energy, Divya was all that I was not. Sensible, composed, rational - she was the one who could fill all my voids and together we complemented each other well. She was as insanely in love with me as I was with her.
Long walks in the evenings and coffees in CCD were how we spent most of our time together. It was during one such long walk, that she dared me to kiss her. I get along well with people and mingle with strangers easily. But to kiss a girl in the middle of a road in my neighbourhood was something. Given the fact that both of us are from orthodox brahmin families in Tamilnadu makes it more than something. All the eyes on earth seemed to be looking at me including those of the girl who meant everything to me. I just smiled and held her hand and kept walking. My heartbeats going faster than ever. I was just hoping she would not hear the loud thumps of my heart. She understood and walked with me. Which made me want to kiss her all the more. She understood me so well and how can I deny her anything she wanted? And so, I did it. Kissed her in the middle of the road. Threw all care and fear to the wind and kissed my Divya for the first time ever.
I don't know how long it lasted. But it seemed like a lifetime. It was totally worth it not only because I kissed her but because of the look she gave me after that. A look which simply said that she knew how much I loved her, that she trusted me and she knew I will never deny her anything. She held my hand tighter and we walked in silence.
Six months have passed since then. Lot of things happened including her engagement to someone else. From our fairytale love story to the realities of the present world, we both were pushed to corners where we either had to give up the 22 years of love given to us by our families or the 1 year of love that we both shared. We then decided to hurt ourselves rather than hurt our families and let them proceed with their plans.
"Krishna..." she called me again. Took me a minute to snap out of the memories of the past and get back to her call on my mobile. "Yes Divya, am here... Tell me"
"Nee kalyanathukku varuva thaane? Unna naan expect pannuven... " ("You would come for my wedding right? I would be expecting you")
"Of course yes Divya. I will be there. How can I not come to your wedding? Don't worry. I will be there."
And the call ended there. As I went back to memories of her, one thing was clear, I could never deny her anything she wanted. Over the past one year my objective has been to keep her happy. Over the next 24 hours, the objective will be redefined as - making sure she is happy with or without me.
Brilliant!!!
ReplyDeleteu gotto have one soon!
y change the name dude?
ReplyDeleteor shud I say whose Divya?? :P
Nice one btw...
@Priyank , sona - thank you :)
ReplyDeleteYou spin another web in my mind! Making me wonder who are these girls you keep talking about.BTW, why do the stories with 'girlfriends' in it always have "sad" endings or tragic endings?
ReplyDelete@ Arvind anna - The first love story 'From me to you' had a happy ending only. This is the second love story post and has an ending which may be called sad, but actually the character of Krishna will love Divya all the same forever more... So sad or not is something you have to decide! ;)
ReplyDeleteKrishna loves Divya...but does Divya love Krishna? I guess, the answer to this question only would decide whether its a sad or happy ending! ;-)
ReplyDeleteAnd the blog "from me to you" ends as though telling - " A FILM BY BALU MAHENDRA" !!! It is an equivocal ending!
ReplyDelete@ Arvind - here are my answers
ReplyDelete1. Divya loves Krishna too. The sole reason she called him, and she wanted his wishes was because of that love. Even though she will always hold him special, she will have to learn to accept someone else as her life partner. Things are much harder for her than for Krishna now. Krishna has a lot of time to move on but Divya does not. So Divya's happiness alone will decide Krishna's happiness (her happiness alone matters to him) and that will decide the end of the story.
2. Stories/Movies always have only a small part of life. So did the post 'From me to you'. The post ended on a happy note. The rest of the story is left to the reader's imagination. :)
Dhivya loves Krishna yet accepts and marries another person! She still invites Krishna because she loves him! Come on! Thats treachery! Iam not saying she shouldnt marry anyone else..she can, thats her perogative...but you cant eat the cake and have the cake too! ;-) :-)
ReplyDeleteDivya and Krishna mutually agreed to part ways so that their parents will be happy. Now, Divya does not have a choice of waiting to get married. She has not been given a choice and hence she cannot be blamed. Life has to move on. Both will eventually move on. That cannot be denied.
ReplyDeleteBut Divya has not been given time to overcome her emotions and accept reality. She is not trying to eat the cake and have it too. She is in a state where what she already had has been denied to her and what she does not want is being thrust upon her. She invites Krishna not as a lover but as a person who will always wish the best for her now and forever. She values that care and wishes as she realizes that those are the only things she can get from him going forward.
Krishna understands what she is going through and hence decides he will ensure she is happy with or without him. As a well wisher.
Hmmm..Interesting thought... .RIGHTLY said Jayanth! Indeed Dhivya's decision is commendable. BTW, my wife's views were the same as yours except that she told me so even before WE read your last reply.
ReplyDeleteKUDOS Jayanth....great thinking and writing.
PEACE AT LAST!!
(in your blog and between me & my wife! LOL:-)
divya n krishna i m proud of u :)
ReplyDeletemany write blogs for the sake of publitising themselves about there talent to write blog, using hi 5 vocabulary. At the end , they end up writing a lifeless blog. in tat way ur writings r simple, making reader to think, moreover pouring life to the person who reads as , the topics under which u write is gud and decorative. keep going on
ReplyDeleteMy one and only question is... " Is what am reading real?? I remember someone with the name of Sona I suppose.. But it is vague..:p
ReplyDelete@ Sid - Sona was the first supposed girl friend I had while we were in school :D Those were the days man... :) And to answer your question, no, what you read is not real :)
ReplyDeletewas the first supposed girlfriend eh?? So I take there have been quite a few after that.. anyways.. long time no see...How is your mom and gmom?? and has your sister finished (was it dental :O?)
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